Entering a New Year Feeling Alone

I am stepping into 2026

with no best friend to lean on,

a family that feels distant,

and a boyfriend who treats my existence

like something optional.

I stand here broken

mentally exhausted, physically drained

carrying wounds no one bothers to see.

Some nights, I wonder

if I am so deeply flawed

that even God decided

I deserve the heaviest pain.

The loneliness settles in my chest,

whispering cruel thoughts

that maybe my absence

would be quieter than my presence,

that maybe I was never meant

to be held gently by this world.

And yet, I wake up.

Still breathing.

Still feeling.

Still hurting.

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